You need to hang in there brother. Nobody is going to do it but "you" only!!! There are many people who have been through much worse and some who have had it easy. If you ever want to chat you can hit me up on my forum at meth-kills.com
Grants pass Huh? How do like Sacramento? I grew up in San Diego, I can't afford to live there now, however, I like Oregon better, I can always go visit.