It is your life and your responsibility. you can cry about it or do what millions have done without treatment. Stop using, get your ass to a meeting, listen carefully, raise your hand, and say, "I am new. I need some help." Then don't take anything…
Ever make it to the Thursday night meeting on Green Hill Rd in Sebastopol? I was carried into that meeting from detox and came to to our friend Jack W as the speaker way back when. Lots of newcomers to carry the message to.